It has been a long time since I posted.
It has been a long time since I had been touched.
It has been a long time since I felt genuinely happy.
It has been a long time since I reflected this much.
It has been a long time since I felt that there is hope in this dark world.
It has been a long time since I found back the true meaning of "bringing joy through service".
Acid was great but today just brought the whole thing to greater heights.
I never expected them to remember me. To remember my name so well. To remember me being their friend during acid. I was touched. To me it's incredible. To know that I made a difference. To be their friends.
Their smiles on their faces brought smiles to my face. The hi-fives, the handshake, the gratitude.
Their innocence. Their happiness. It's all beautiful. Genuine.
They are happy over the smallest things and I wish I could too. But as we achieve more in this society, as we move higher, nothing seems to satisfy us. Big things sometimes bring us only superficial happiness, but what about deep down.
It made me reflect. What had I become the past two years in jc. What happened to what I got from Ijym in sn. I have lost the most important part of myself. Found again by these trainees.
Ultimately it's them who matter. What I could give them is only a fraction of what they gave me.
It has been a long time.
It's time to be back to myself. One that I can be true to myself.
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