Thoughts

Hi.

I've been thinking recently.

What have I been doing with my life?
What have I done with my life?
What am I going to do with my life?

Honestly I have no idea.

I've no sense of whatever direction I'm heading to. No dreams. Nothing. Well, if you consider being a Tai tai one.

Maybe I should really sit down and think about it. Maybe now. Maybe... What do I want to be when I grow up?

My inner being tells me I want to fly free. I envy those who get to travel everyday (well, almost). Not stuck here with nowhere to go.

Kpop has gotten me thinking these few days.

Look at boyfriend's minwoo and jotwins. They are my age, and look at what they are doing and what I am doing. At least they know what they want in life. They seem to be making full use of their life. What about me? I feel like I'm wasting my life away.

To be honest I'm envious of them. I was thinking why. It came to me that I was envious of them flying and travelling all the time. I even thought how good it will be to perhaps be a star. What a joke. It is probably trapping yourself when you want to be free. Perhaps all the attention will be good? Perhaps.... After all, I'm human too.

I wanna be free. I wanna soar my wings and fly. But the irony is where are my wings.

Well, on the brighter side of life, it's jungmin's birthday!!!!! Yay!!!! :) I'm starting to like him. Actually all of the members in boyfriend. Except the leader? Okay, I have no idea.

I shall continue living in my fantasy world. It's fantasy for a reason.

Goodnight world.